Perhap the past is not yet the past... and It is the force that has shaped the present and, if we are not careful, it will turn out to be the force that defines our future!!! I keep referring to some experience which made a big impression on me long ago... maybe some how I am subtly allowing this to colour my judgement...I do know that I should prejudice my opinion and stunt my imagination....I stand poised to achieve great things....yes I keep telling myself!!! But before I can move forward successfully though, I must first put the ghost of a memory to rest...and not be afraid of facing (and beating) an old fear....

I've dreamed of you
Always feeling you
Were there
And all my life
I have searched for you
Everywhere
I caught your smile
In the morning sun
I heard your whisper
On the breeze of night
I prayed one day
That your arms would hold me tight

And just when i
Thought love had passed me by
We met
That first look
In your eyes
I can't forget
You melted me
With your tender touch
I felt all fear and sorrow
Slip away
Now here we stand
Hand in hand
This blessed day

I promise you
As I give to you
My heart
That nothing in this world
Shall keep us apart
Come happily ever after be
The man I'll love
Until the very end
I've dreamed of you
My great love
And my best friend

For God must know
How I love you so
He's blessed us here today
As man and wife
Come dream with me
As I've dreamed of you
All my life

Come dream with me
As I've dreamed of you
All my life

Wow!

There comes a moment in every board game when, having thrown the dice, you must wait for them to stop tumbling and reveal their numbers. Measured by a conventional chronometer this process takes a second or so. For some people (yours truely!!), under some circumstances (NOW!) , though, it can feel like forever and a day. Regardless of how long it takes, though, regardless, too, of how seriously one intend to take the outcome of a particular process, the dice needs to cast... I need something to be set in motion... No point trying to influence it further....Just have to wait for it to stop tumbling... And, trust it!!!

I can't win. I am stuck, stumped, stymied. There's something awkward, unexpected or just plain baffling everywhere I turn. I guess I strive for something like a good news...

Remember the tale of the ugly ducking. A lot of things in life seem wrong when we first encounter them. May we need to let a little time pass before we reach a final judgement or be careful about taking appearances too seriously. Our expectations can prejudice us to the point where we can dismiss something good as something bad, simply because it doesn't fit our mental model. Perhaps it is wiser to look twice at whatever it is we don't like looking at. Who knows maybe there is a silver lining that's about 3 times the size of the cloud it appears to be attached to!!!

We all have bad habits. We all make mistakes. We all have parts of the past we are proud of, and incidents that we regret. We all want to compensate, we all seek justice. We don't, though, all go out of our way to achieve the impossible. Some of us settle for more modest aspirations. Some of us feel daunted by the pressures and problems of everyday life. I, though, don't want to be afraid. Nor am I willing to compromise. Nor should I. If I reach for the highest standard now, I may not attain it instantly, but I'll certainly start to come surprisingly close...

Today is the second day of the rest of my life. What happened to the first? Oh, that was yesterday, didn't you notice? I have already set off down the road to a new future. Recent decisions have been brave and far-reaching. This next phase of the adventure is due to be exceptionally memorable...Yes I will say so.... It will soon seem as if I am viewing, in Technicolor, a scene that I had previously witnessed only in monochrome. Or as if a narrow window has been replaced with a panoramic vista. Anything is possible now...Yes...I would like to think so...!